Taking one step at a time makes life much easier to navigate rather than always looking at the big picture.
These last few weeks I have been feeling extremely exhausted and overwhelmed. My agenda has been packed to the brim and life has been nothing short of slightly-organized-chaos to say the least.
I want to shed a little bit of light on owning your own biz and then we'll get right into today’s post 😃 (I'll try to keep this short + sweet. Edited to add — I definitely do not keep this sweet + short.)
It is very obvious that society glamorizes entrepreneurship and portrays small business ownership as always being aesthetically pleasing desks, brunch + champagne on a Wednesday morning with your gal pals and ultimately the most freeing endeavor you could ever take on. This is not the whole truth. ESPECIALLY, if / when you hold a full time corporate job AND run a full time business.
We know there are always two sides to the coin and although I will not get into every detail (that can be left for another day, another blog post), I'll just say this: owning + operating your very own business is extremely demanding and often resembles emotions that follow the tracks of a roller-coaster. It is HARD, it is NOT always glamorous and some days you will question, why the hell you even started said business in the first place.
This ^^ tidbit leads me to part 2 of this post.
Last week I was having a legitimate pity party; really feeling sorry for myself. My phone would NOT stop buzzing from the moment I woke up to the time I laid down in bed. I was on the verge of being completely over it. Then one of my clients said some very kind words that shattered every ill feeling I had brewed up in my head in regards to my business. It was just what I needed just when I needed it. I think this is what they call as the beginning stages of “small business burn out”.
**please note: this post is not directed toward any of my clients! This post is about ME. I have been incredibly lucky to have such awesome + inspiring + caring clients who 9/10 become real-life friends.
This is going to be a really ramble-y post so please bare with me if you haven’t already checked out!
Last Wednesday a few local small biz owners and I met at The Yoke Bar and Grill in downtown Coffeyville for a work night. We set up camp with our laptops and agendas / to-do lists in tow. One of the ladies that joined us is getting ready to start an online boutique and is in the midst of transitioning from a blog to an ecommerce site. We were just chatting and kind of outlining her next steps to prep for her launch. <— Business strategy + start up is something that really lights my ass up. I love + crave it.
It was in those conversations that I had a revelation. I used to blog "just for fun" and because I thoroughly enjoyed it. However, it seems as if, when I felt like I *had* to blog or *had* to produce content is when it took all of the fun out of it. I completely recluse’d from the blogging scene because it didn't feel natural to me anymore--it always felt as if I need to have some kind of angle to every post. I don’t like that. Sometimes I just want to jump on and tell you guys how my week is going, the fun that I’m up to, or hell, even the stress I’m feeling and how I’m coping. I want to share about all of my woo-woo ideas and metaphysical obsessions. Sometimes, though, I just want to share things that are superficial, like the products I’m currently loving, the ULTA haul that cost me damn near a mortgage, flea market finds and all of that good rot. Now that I have Rad Maverix Republic (for all things biz development), I’m really hoping to get back to the roots of Rad Maverix, a life + style blog.
I wish I could explain in words how many blog posts I have started, just to be left in "draft". And how many video's I've recorded just to be left on my camera or half-ass edited in iMovie. I've been in a mega funk about blogging and I don't know how to explain it.
I have failed several times and I expect and plan to continue failing because honestly that’s how I learn. Failing helps me identify what I suck at, it helps me figure out a new plan but also helps me further identify my strengths. And obviously “GRACEFULLY HANDLING IT ALL” is not one of my strengths at the moment. You live, you learn + then you do better.
Another note. Which may come to your surprise. I don’t like being the center of attention and I don't like people looking at me. As a matter of fact, I loath the thought of being in the spotlight. And although I love to document what I’m up to, events I’m attending and new adventures I’m exploring – I do NOT like asking people (most of the time it's JF) to take my photo. And 90% of the time when I’m doing ^^ said “life” things, I love being in the moment and honestly...documenting for the sake of social media is not really on my mind. I have faced many hardships that most people don’t know about and I have (luckily) learned to appreciate and enjoy every moment on this beautiful earth. So I still need to learn that sweet spot of documenting but still living in the moment.
With my schedule + sanity as it is, I can in no way, shape or form, promise a regular schedule of blog posts. I'm going to try and get on here and just write what’s on my mind, what I'm up to, what I'm obsessing over, maybe an occasional #ootd and all of the chaos that’s happening at the Rad Maverix HQ. And you know what, to be completely honest with you, after giving this a shot I might come to find that blogging doesn’t really serve me anymore. And if that’s the case, that’s okay too! No need to force something that doesn’t add value to my life or those around me.
That’s it for today I think I’ve rambled on enough. Thanks for reading and following my journey.
If you're a long time blog “follower” &/or a member of the Rad Maverix Lifestyle FB Group, I have good news.
But I’m not announcing until next week. 😁